No amount of motivation can be so enticing to lift me up from my state right now.
Yesterday i felt so alive because he is back communicating to me. But the waiting for his messages to arrived makes my heart grew fonder. I missed him more, and each time i wait for his messages.
None has arrived yet today. Have i given so much that i needed to set limits? Or is this a prelude to what would soon be end to communication?
I can feel there is a change in him. Though i would be for the good of us that he will stop communicating. But i ask myself now…is the love we expressed last month can easily be replaced with coldness? How i wish there would be more time for us to keep in touch, to express the love that we felt more openly to each other…but none of this would be easy. None that can benefit us both in the end.
Father if this is a way to an impending end, let it be quick…let our hearts bleed and give us the courage and the strength to move on. Amen.
